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"If only wishes and dreams came true" how good would that be.
why is it always difficult to make it happen??

"believe and you will do it"
but is this saying true??

How do you really aim for wat u want??

well exams have been bad. very bad. :(
results are surely nt something that i am looking forward to. I am expecting the worse.
if i dun do well.
i wont be able to stay in the school if nt retain. wat am i really going to do. is this really wat i want?? but seems like time cant go back. now i can only pray and wish for the best.
maybe changing school might help me??? I DUNNO.

before everything end. let me say this.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE!!! ((:

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i been trying not to cry. letting out a scream or shout. i have been resisting it since yesterday night.

memories have been falling back into my mind. even though i had my happy points in life, there would be a sense of sadness at the back of my mind. It is just that whatever i see or go have a link to my memories. I cant escape neither can i try to hide from everything. But memories are not always good. even though i had sweet memories but i prefer to keep it in a box. I dunno wat is there i can do to stop everything. maybe a brainwash? a bring back time machine? i wish to not think but i cant. promos approaching and everything seems to be in a rush. maybe if i can stop time for a moment for a rest.

anyway promos are here, if not ppl are all busy mugging for their exams. everyone is stressed by the word exam. all are crazy mugging if not going mad cos of it. TIME IS LIMITED. everything needs to be in a rush. everything seems nt going as plan. i will surely have to mug like mad cos i am behind alot of subjects. maybe wont be seen online or maybe will. i dunno

believe and achieve it. dun believe and you have lost half a battle alr.

btw on the 18th of sept was my "daddy's" birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDGAR!!!

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Well the past few days had been rather good. i was rather of a good mood. hyper maybe.
AND yesterday i finally started to do serious studying. I noe that my time is short and in order to pass i have to work really hard. so finally yesterday i decided to go to the library to study with amandaLEONG.
I was there early and i started studying first before amanda finally came. I was there studying from 3 to 845pm. there was time i took a break but still i did much work and i am happy with myself. I feel good after so long for doing work. Then i went home supposely to study but ended up slacking. I really cant study at home and i dunno why. LOLs.

As usual today i woke up late. I set alarm but yet i overslept as i snooze too many times that the alarm auto off. LOLs. I was late for church so ended up not going. but i met with judith and jorim for lunch. We went to parkway and ate pasta as usual. Then we went to play pool. Omg i seriously slack alot today when exams are coming. But i had a good time playing. Then i went to tampines to look for a book but i seriously cannot find it at all. i searched most places but i just cant find the book. I think i have to search more places too. Headed home and slacked since then till now. better start mugging soon i think. Omg i mug so much yesterday and slack today. this is really bad.

GOD I LOVE YOU.
(want to noe the reason)

[x]click here.


p.s there is something amusing too in there.

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exam over. exam over :/

i dun really noe to feel relieve or sad. my exams ended at 325 something in the afternoon. I dunno but everything seem bad. I was so nervous that i said my pieces wrongly. I even forgot a line and he had to prompt me. that sounds bad. i am no where near to feeling proud of myself. I pretty much disappointed but still everything is over now. now promos are coming. well will it be as bad? maybe but lets hope not. my examier today can really talk alot he was nice but how i did seem so bad. :/

mug mug mug mug

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well i am having my exam tmr and boy am i scared. Ok my practice today went alright thou i did not remembered my pieces that well. i seriously worried wat may just happen tmr. will i do badly or will everything be fine?
i am afraid to screw up and afraid tat i may just forget my pieces. wat if it happens?? wat am i to do or say?

i seriously hope tat everything will be just fine and nth may go wrong. praying hard.

lets hope tat the examier is nice enough not toask me too much theory questions. I will be studying damn hard for it later. i noe now is alr late but i am still blogging cos i reached home just only.

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FORBIDDEN CITY : POTRAIT OF AN EMPRESS

The show was good. I love it especially the song. the song really got stuck in my head.

MY ONLY CHANCE
Nobody knows me
Nothing before the day that i came
Like others who've lived and prayed for the same
They dont know my family name
Nobody knows

Nobody sees me
blessed me with luck, the rules of their art
i've been all they hope each day from the start
But no one has seen the dreams in my heart
Nobody knows
Nobody knows

this is a certain part of the song i heard and i fell in love with it.
p.s i noe i said i will not blog for awhile. this shall be my last blog entry.

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goodbye to my friend.

im tired

whatever

everything

i dun care alr.

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today was sunday but i did not go church today at all.

I overslept so ended up meeting amandaLEONG to shop for clothes she can wear to her teacher's wedding today. LOLs. I noe it sounds super rush and it is!! We walked ard pp and managed to find some clothes that she can wear there. Then i followed her home then to meet her friends at bedok interchange. They waited there till everyone came before they left.

I met abby at 1 something. Steph and mel were suppose to be there ended up they were late. We went to eat pasta. As usual it was my idea. LOLs. Then we went to the arcade it has been long since i went and play there. It was surely fun catching up with old times. Then we went to buy a book for ms gracey as a teacher's day gift before we headed for class. i did my pieces first before as i needed to go off. OMG the costume i will be wearing is something i will never wear and no one will surely see me wear it. LOL. It is simply too... i dunno the word to use.

After that, i walked back to pp and met with amanda and her classmates. They were playing pool but when i reached they were abt to go off. They all decided to watch movie at tampines. We all went down tampines but some left halfway. when we reached tampines, we realised that the shows were all too late so we could not watch. We went to eat aijsen. Then we walked ard at tampines mall before heading home.

it was surely a tiring day as so many things happened. I am so tired but i had fun.

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Well today was a good day. i went to watch movie and played pool.

I went out with jorimTAN to orchard. We went to watch the devil wears prada. but the movie we were watching was at 645 so we had to find something to do to spend our 4 hrs. there was seriously nth to do in town. It was seriously boring. We walked and talked from one end to the other end. We walked the whole of wisma and was playing ard at art friend. lols. we were just bored.
then we decided to play pool so we walked back to cine and played pool for 2 hours. however the table we were playing on was really horrible. the balls seriously did not want to fall into the holes. then finally we went for the movie. It was a good movie. there was also a reason behind the show.

the reason : dun force urself to change due to atmosphere but because u want to.
changes that u dun want to make u lose everything that once belongs to u and that u will soon realising that u are just trying to fit in. i really tot that it was kind of true. accept urself and noe that everything that happened has a reason for it.

haha someone said i was heartless and insensitive. i guess the person is more like that lo. still can say me. how evil. lols. anyway the person said i was heartless cos the person is sick today. i am not that heartless can. better take care and sleep more until like a pig ba. LOLs.

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LOLs.
today was a good day thou tiring.
training was tiring and surely took up most of my energy for the day. I was damn tired at the end. After training i went to eat dinner with the rest. We went to jurong point to eat. as usual i ate beef noodles. but during training i have heard of my happening tag board. It was surely happening man. I saw it when i reached home. But before heading home, i went to edgar's house with dickson. it was only at ard 9 i reach home. I was on the com since then till now.

then someone talked to me of insensitiveness. LOLs. wat a topic.
insensitive : showing or feeling no concern for others' feelings
: not aware of or able to respond to something
haha i dun think i am a person like that. maybe the person on the phone is one. lols. try denying it lo. i am not one at all i am ab sensitive person. so u are wrong. WRONG!! haha. We were arguing but damn funny the way we were saying it. we both dun seem to want to give in. we felt that each other was right and the other was wrong.
arguing on rubbish = perfect day. ok la i shall admit it made my day. THANK YOU. lols.

*Samantha Chan
*18 this year
*27 Jan 1989

LOVES

*GOD

*friends
*to go out
*pool
*bowling
*badminton
*tennis
*laugh
*sleeping
*the beach
*trying new and adventurous stuff
*chit chat
*to be loved
*making friends
*coffee - starbucks one
*cheese cake

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