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seems like what i was saying seem to be making things worse. I dun mean it that way. I just agreeing that there is a weakness in me and my languages.

i guessed i should not have said so much
I am sorry. I have created alot of anger i guessed when i was just meaning to say that i agreed that i was in a wrong and my weakness.

I am terribly sorry.

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I am sorry being such a failure in my projects. I was never cut out to be a leader right from the start. Never did even think that i was suited to be a leader. I am just a follower. I was never ready to carry out a role as a leader. I would never deny that my language is no good and half of wat i say would not make any sense or it was not any help for the project. okie to put it simple. i am useless and was never cut out for any of this work. I guessed everything round up to be my fault. The blame is all thrown on me. i dun understand for someone to bare the anger and not tell me how was i to know that everything was not fine. I mean there was always a chance that you could just come up and tell me and not wait till u are super displeased that you shoot everything at me one straight. I mean u just throwing everything at me all at one moment. couldnt u just tell me earlier and maybe i can realise what i have done wrong and try to make it better. I mean i would not deny that i am rather caught up with my bf and that my limits have gone passed the it. I mean did u noe i tried to do as much as i could but it seems like i was wrong in doin them. I mean i guessed that for most of my projs i did not helped much and i am a failure in that for having my limits right. I mean if u are so not happy from the start i dun understand why didnt u just try and talk to me of it and not keep making me feel that things were fine.

i guessed i done too many things wrong to deserve anything good. i mean receiving something good would always mean u would lose something else. I guessed that happened and i guessed it happen forever.

The only sentence i left to say is I AM SORRY. but it is too late and thats alright. it all my fault for not doing anything and for being such a big failure.

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HAHA.. looks like my blog might just very well only be updated every 2nd week of the month. ooops i wonder wat might just happen next. HAHA. maybe i just might not even blog already and let the blog die out?? hmmm...

School this few days been flooded with projects and more projects. Rushing out work is such a tiring thing to do. I guessed the next whole week all i will be doing would just be rushing out work and thats all. I guess i wont even have the time to slack and play. I really dunno what more to say of projects. Other then that i guess school been fine but here and there it is kind of expected to have troubles. Nothing should be said to go your way. We will just have to accept the fact and just continue with life.

I have also recently thought about something. I realised that i have many friends who i have known for a very very long time. It is close to or even reaching 10 yrs. I feel so happy just having them around. The understand and know how i feel of stuff and i really thank them for always being there for me. Thank you my friends. =) It is never easy to have friends for so long as many of your friends would usually lose contact and stuff. I happy to have friends like them.

HAPPY 1st MONTH MY LOVE =D
I must say that you have never failed to make my day. my smile is always there with you around. Thank you. ((: I would not deny that we have our disagreements and sometimes it doesnt go the way we want it to. We would get frustrated and stuff but i believe that we can be able to solve it in one way or another. I also seen the care love and concern.You never failed to make me feel so safe and loved. I LOVE YOU!! =D

never letting go.

take care everyone. :)

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A morning post =)
haha. first time i suppose. It has really been long since i did a morning post.
let me summarise the week. hmmm..
so many things happened this week. good and bad but everything seem to be fine on the whole i hope?HAHA. but something pleased i passed so far everything but all is super low. I feel rather horrible abt it but i cant really do anything abt it now but just work harder and score better at the end. I really hope i can do it!!The week has also been super slack for me!! I broke a very bad record which is not even attending a single lecture this week. HAHA. i think it is time to stop skipping and going for all. HAHA.

take care everyone
maybe shall post later. ((:

my gurdian angel =D

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It been long since i made a post!!
finally one is coming.

holidays are finally over, school reopen. many things happened and good or bad it is sometimes questioned. I had fun during the hols even though most of the time i was busy doing proj but something sweet and happy happened. =)

results are coming out one after another. From what i can see i arent doing tat well actually rather far from good. Hope tat everything will be fine and there would be lots of improvement! I would really hope to do well to get to somewhere good. focus sam!! i can do it!!

anyway i guess i have been rather busy and not really hanging around with my friends. NVM i am back!! HAHA. i will be back and will try to be there everytime.

okie take care everyone
nights

misses =))

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BEEN LAZY AND STILL IS.
HAHA

dun really feel like blogging already. HAHA too lazy!!

TOO MANY THINGS HAPPEN!! HAHA. i shall talk abt it again as for now i guess i will end this post here.

nights everyone. =D

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The week is rather alright only. I know tat people says tat i am having fun. i wont deny tat i am but just tat it has been an up and down week for me. I feel rather bad in some things and tat i feel tat what that has been having last year will happen again.
I am really afraid tat what i am thinking might just happen. I dunno i feel sorry towards my group too. Okie i noe i shld not say abt it again but then i am really feeling a lil guilty. sorry guys =)

the coming week will be super busy as my tests will all be coming up! wish me luck i guess.

good luck everyone ((:
nights

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*Samantha Chan
*18 this year
*27 Jan 1989

LOVES

*GOD

*friends
*to go out
*pool
*bowling
*badminton
*tennis
*laugh
*sleeping
*the beach
*trying new and adventurous stuff
*chit chat
*to be loved
*making friends
*coffee - starbucks one
*cheese cake

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