Friday, August 25, 2006
@8/25/2006 11:45:00 PM
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school have been rather good. Alright i guess. I seriously dunno. Not that i am just thinking too much. more abt my studies. I think i will never catch up and just get retained. I want to study and do well but when i open the book i just dun seem to noe how to continue. I am just lost in the books. Ok i do not noe how to study and how to really do my work. so maybe i shld stop studying and quit school. as in seriously give up. I been thinking of doing that. i just dunno la. I am too sian of work to think. Teachers have been talking to me abt work. OK i am useless when it comes to work and i will never catch up thats wat i think.
I think that i am a horrible friend too. useless la. Just too boring. I dun seem to be able to entertain ppl. I have lost my identity since the hols ended. who am i??? I dunno. i just noe that my name is samantha a human. who was i during the hols and who was i before that?? I dunno . i seem to have forgotten. I want to find myself but i cant. yeaterday a friend was talking to me. she found out of me in suspension and words my teacher said. her reaction was big. WAT HAPPENED?? she dun seem to noe me and i dunno myself too. I dun seem to be like this before. wat has really happened?? i really questioned myself. i dunno. i seem to be in trouble too much. shld i have friends in the first place. maybe i am too hopeless to be anyone friend. I shld give up. lol. maybe i would make my friends bored. I dunno la. i have been thinking of it lately. maybe a failure i am as a friend. anyway i thank god for friends but am i that worth it for them.
i am fine. but just that a few thoughts i have been thinking abt this week. maybe work comes first now. I dunno i feel like stopping watever that is happening. maybe it may just help. I dunno wat to say now abt works. but i will still be happy =))).
