Sunday, August 20, 2006
@8/20/2006 08:45:00 PM
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Time for me to really think everything properly. The days of emo have to come to an end. not many know the reason but then the reason was not really impt. sorry and thanks to those who had heard my grumbling or whatever i said. I hope it never irritate anyone. if it did? sorry. My emotions have lost its control. I shall not say the reason here at all cos it is no longer impt. I have made a decision whether right or wrong i do not know. but just that i hope it is. Someone just helped me to confirmed my decision. anyway can i be myself or just a cover i dunno. I will try to me myself but i think it will be a cover more than the real me. It shldnt be that diff to be happy and i think i shld be able to obtain it. maybe clear my thoughts would be the best help. I will do that real soon. I dunno but i thought that why didnt i withdrew. maybe not tat many problems to have happened. I had fun making friends thou. They will be part of me.
Well today was considered a happy day.(to me it didnt felt like a cover.) As usual i was late for church. I dunno why but i seem to be drifting away from church. maybe it is time to become more close to them again. Maybe cos i need more friends. God will always be part of my life even thou i seem to be getting further away. I used to have a close relationship with god but now i dun really seem to have that kind of close relationship. Why?? anyway after church talked to abelLEE for a while then talked to sarahONG. Then me, sarahONG, jorimTAN and xinYI went to tampines together. Laughter was there as we walked there. They went to eat at long john while i went to meet amandaLEONG. we went to shop at converse. bought shoes. :) then we went pasta to eat and chat. even thou we can meet very often in a week we never seem to have lack of topics to talk abt. Then wanted to go her house but then it was a lil rush so decided not to. Went home and went to sleep. I slept like for hours. I woke up like at 7. The sleep was not the prefect sleep cos i keep waking up here and there. it was nice but not the perfect one.
