Thursday, October 19, 2006
@10/19/2006 11:04:00 PM
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i did not expect things to go so bad. I knew that there was always a chance but now i have lost it.
HOW GOOD samantha. U DID THE BEST JOB IN UR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE.
I can stand there crying but still wat can it help??? I meant everything was all so wrong. everything just everything.
I knew that i cant do anything to change that fact. I will have to face reality.
i cant blame anyone i can only blame myself. I felt hopeless. how i wish i knew a way.
Everything is of a reason wat am i to say.
I think tmr as i noe if i am promoted or not it will surely hit me badly.
I will just have to hold it and try hard not to show it.
but how much can i hold it?? I will surely breakdown and everything will surely not go my way.
I pray hard that god will help me thru this time and bless me.
I shall close my eyes and keep silent for whatever i face tmr i will have to face it on my own. No one can help me or keep me not feeling the sadness as the tears slowly rolled down my cheeks.
