Friday, October 20, 2006
@10/20/2006 10:03:00 PM
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IHATEMYLIFENOW.
it is just terrible. I cried today from the time i know the outcome all the way till my school ended.
I just cant faced wat i have infront of me. I was like on the verge of a breakdown .
thru my life I have never made such a big mistake and this was like the worse among all.
I am disappointed without a doubt and sad. I feel like a dumb person making a choice like this.
I feel like doing lots of things which i noe is wrong. WAT AM I TO DO???
I feel so horrible. if only GOD will show me the way.
I am broken into a million pieces but i dun seem to be able to escape of wat i am to face.
I want to escape run far away and run into a place i can hide from everyone and just be forgotten.
Everyone who did well or close to it all the best i am just not me for a while. I am pretty depressed.
pretty much given up too tired just for everything,
I dun want to burden anyone and have not really said my true feelings.
ok i am breaking down. maybe. i may still survive.
lines are cut so deep into the skin that u feel no pain after all the pain u faced.
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[taken from cyn's blog] ((:
" Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
- Our deepest fear, Marianne Williamson
